Turning things around

I've been apparently crawling into a dark place lately. I didn't even realize it, but now that I have...It hasn't been fun. I'm being challenged lately, in a physical way. Not only have I had some dental work that has had my jaw in pain for a few weeks, I have been dealing with some back and leg pain that isn't allowing me to exercise, jog or even briskly walk for that matter! It is totally frustrating! I've come to realize how much I need to exercise and the fact that I CAN'T...is taking a huge toll on me emotionally!

Its affecting me in more ways than I want to admit, and accompanied by the fact that I am being called out on it by those closest to me hurts me more than I can explain. I am not like this usually, and to think that I am expressing myself negatively doesn't sit well with me at all. But after some soul searching, I have come to realization that these physical restrictions and limitations are mainly at the core of my emotional dysfunction of the moment.

I've done my due diligence though. I went and got myself checked out via blood tests and x-rays and thankfully all my blood work has come back with flying colors, although my doctor did point out that at my age things can be changing (No, really?!) Great! I've since been consoled by the fact that friends have said that things are changing with them too, lol! Uuggh! However, my x-rays were the winners showing that an old injury to my tail bone is coming back to haunt me. I'm not appreciating its timing, but I guess I have to deal with it before It becomes permanent.

I saw a chiropractor yesterday that confirmed that my body is a little tweaked here and there, and is need of some alignments, but nothing too serious thankfully.  He has also told me that I shouldn't be running right now because I could make this worse. So what does that mean? It means that the 10k I had my heart on doing in Novemember is probably out of the question at this time. This is a painful and disappointing  pill for me to swallow, and my pride is getting to me as I'm ready to prove my body wrong even if it means that I can't run after the race. BUT the logical side, the side that prefers to get better now so I can possibly do more than just one 10k in the future, is slowly taking over, but begrudgingly so I have to say.  My body is telling me otherwise and it needs to get rid of some stress soon or else I feel like I'm going to tear something or somebody up into shreds...Just saying :\

This whole situation has me very short tempered, moody/emotional and on the verge of tears...all the time. So in essence I've been very down, and have been seeing everything through negative eyes (unfortunately, a bad habit that keeps coming back on occasion). I just haven't felt happy. This isn't any good...for anybody!! My poor family can attest to this and I don't want to feel like this anymore or Ever for that matter. 

 

However, this week I feel like God has been trying to wake me up by hitting me with Facebook posts of quotes and sayings that my friends and family are posting (none of them aware of what I've been feeling btw). I couldn't help but wonder if its just been coincidence or maybe that the universe is trying to tell me to get over it too.

I also saw a beautiful rainbow on Tuesday night that I mysteriously couldn't get a clear picture of to have proof of. (I guess that was a gift for my eyes only...hmmm??) So I said to myself as I saw it, "Ok, God. I get it now. I'm going to be good. Its all going to fine on the other end." It made me take a deep breath, and it felt good.

So I am going to turn things around for myself. Or at least try!

Yesterday, the sun was bright and beautiful. I am a finger tip closer to a goal I've been trying to reach for a long time which will hopefully get me closer to a newer goal I've been thinking of taking on. My jaw is on the mend, and I have a possible treatment plan for my back problem that in the long run will hopefully keep me "running" happy and healthy again. And I can't forget that next week, my family is off to HAWAII! I need to thank my awesome In-Laws for this much needed trip, and we are all going to use this time to re-charge! So all of this has made me happier. I am feeling hopeful and somewhat re-energized, and there is a new purpose for me.

I found this on Pinterest the other day, and it was my prompt for this post. I have to believe that this challenge/roadblock is only temporary and in the long run will only make me stronger. It has too!!!
I cannot give up on my goals. It just can't happen. It will not happen!!

Not if I can help it.

I'll keep you posted. For now- Enough said.

From my corner to yours...may you be able to turn around your challenges today.

Have a great day :)

1st Annual "We Are Family" BBQ

We have been soo busy lately its been hard to catch up with things including my blog, and I'd love to share all those things, but not all is totally news worthy or honestly even that interesting. But I would like to share a special Saturday we had a few weeks ago.  As most of you know, I grew up with a set of close family friends that were just that to me as I grew up...Family.  This past holiday season I wrote about how this "family" of mine gets together during the holidays to do Novenas as a way to make sure that our children grow up with as much of our culture as we did.    Well, this year in an effort to make sure that we get together more often, one of our friends, Sandra, has been trying for years to start a yearly family reunion/BBQ and it just hasn't happened...until a few weeks ago. And it started off with an email from Sandra like this... Hey Everyone, Well this has been a long time coming.... I've been trying to plan a good' ole Colombian afternoon BBq for awhile... As some of you may recall, when we were kids we use to go to the Coronado's with Kentucky Fried Chicken, Mcdonalds or homemade food for an afternoon of swimming, eating and fun.... Well, all of us kids have grown up with families of our own...and I am trying to recreate that and for years to come.. Novenas cannot possibly be the only time we all get together in a single year..... We need to reconnect and introduce the new cultures and the people that are part of our lives... Let this be the start to a new Tradition.... And that's what it will be.... Why is this such a big deal? Its just a BBQ. Well yes, but you have to understand that for us, we grew up having summers being together filled with weekly swimming, cookouts, dance parties galore, and the local hang out was always my house ("the Coronado's" as mentioned above) as we were the only ones with the pool. Our house was an open door for our friends and we were always together. Everyone would pitch in by bringing fruit, food to cook, or like back then, yes, KFC and McDonald's were cheap enough for us to feed a house full. Oh the good ol' times! ;)   Anyway, that's how it was and if you ask any of us, those will forever be some of our best childhood memories! We all learned how to swim at my pool. There's not one of us that didn't get thrown in and were expected to swim out on our own by one or any of our dads. There are soo many memories I could mention...It honestly makes me happy just to reminisce.  And that is the same feeling and the memories we want for our kids. We want them to grow up together and be able to look back and be able to say that they felt like family too. Each of our family's dynamics have changed and logistically have made it harder for all of our families to spend as much time together as we did, but we're doing the best we can to give them the opportunities to build as many of their own memories.  So we got together on 9/22 for our first annual family BBQ and we had a great time. The kids went swimming like we used to, and the older kids played baseball together, we (the new parents) set up, cooked and hung out like our parents used to, and in turn- our moms, "Las Viejas," (warmly translated as "the old ladies") got to sit around and get waited on.  And for old times sake and just for plain old ha-has, my mom and my aunt showed up with KFC. It was too funny, but guess what? We had no problem chowing down on it like old times either! lol!      Most of us took our old (OLD!) magnetic type photo albums that had pictures of when we were little to  share with everybody.  We actually spent hours looking through these pictures... commenting, laughing, and pointing out old haircuts, fashions (that are actually in style again now), and people that we used to know. We laughed and excitedly talked about the old days, and retold stories for our spouses to hear. We awed over how much our kids resembled us when we were younger. In so many pictures I realized how much Mikey looks like me, just without the pony tails. :) It was just fun! It was heartwarming! And it bonded us and our friendships all over again! It really reminded us and our kids just how close we've been all these years, and how important it is to keep our families close for years to come.  So we made sure that we'd have proof for our kids and their future kids, so we took the following pictures to commemorate the 1st annual BBQ:  Families represented:  Cañas-Chavez, Cardenas-Arango, Coronado-Camacho,  Coronado, Correa, Garcia-Halaby, and Jaramillo    We took just a kids picture and wanted to include all future children, so that black shirt/spot you see in the middle is my brother, Sergio and Casandra's baby bump to represent their baby girl. It was too cute! We had so much fun taking these pictures (over and over again!), and we truly hope to continue to have this BBQ on an annual basis at a different family's house each year. We also want to try to make a scrapbook that we can all contribute and add pictures to, and maybe make it a traveling book of sorts. I believe this will truly become a priority for our families for so many reasons- one being that we realized how quickly time will go by before our kids are all grown up and go their separate ways that we need to keep them together as long as possible. Thank you to Sandra and Eddie for having all of us over and taking the time to start this new tradition. Thank you Eddie for that amazing BBQ chicken you made...a much healthier traditional substitute for KFC to continue...LOL! and finally... Thank you to all our family friends that were there and to those that couldn't make it that day. To say I cherish our friendship and all our memories is not enough, but I'm so excited to help keep them going for us and our kids.  May we all hold our friendships close to our hearts...old and new!! From my corner to yours...Have a wonderful weekend everybody and thank you for stopping by! XO