Things that make you go....hmmmm?

Is it possible to have lived a previous life?? Is there really such a thing as reincarnation?? The coming back as a new person to start a new life of sorts, right?

I don’t know. What do you think??

I have always been considered to be an old soul of sorts by many people including my husband. This has been witnessed by my not so normal choice of music for a girl who grew up in the 80’s that includes a huge love for The Monkees from the time I was 5 years old, and for connecting deeply to all music from the 60’s, and an odd fetish for all things British. I am in my element with all these things, and when I listen to this music it even makes me nostalgic to the point that I feel like I have lived through that music before.

I have always wondered to myself why I have this connection. How do people really find themselves attracted to particular music, things, people, etc…Is there something more to this?

Who knows, but I half joke with people lately in related conversations that my love/connection with this music is soo much so that I somehow believe that I was probably a teenager in the 60’s, was probably a gogo girl at some point, died in 1969 and came back in 1971 just 3 years later.

Really, Sandy?? Yes, really!! LOL!!

So just recently, I am having this conversation with a new friend, Lisa, who along with her husband Alex, was introduced to us by our dear friends, Jen and Geoff, and at the latest Counter get together, we start talking about music likes and dislikes, about the 60’s and our stories are becoming similar and then I tell her out loud my theory about myself, when she looks at me with big eyes and in so many words says to me, “OMG! This is soo weird but I feel like I died in 1969 too!!!” WHAT??!!! OMG!! Seriously?! Is there really somebody right in front of me who gets me!!!! It was such a weird moment for both of us, it left us all tingly inside, and yet we both knew it was possible. I will spare you the excitement that ensued between us as we were being looked at oddly by Jen, my husband, and another friend who all giggled and nodded nervously and were nice enough to amuse us by listening to our conversation.

We both left that day knowing we had made an interesting yet exciting connection as friends and had coffee together just last Thursday to discuss this idea that we share of a possible past life and what we think that might have been like for both of us. Had our paths crossed back then? Were we friends at one point? Soo many questions really, but all we knew at the end of our conversation is that we were definitely meant to meet up again in this lifetime. (Thank you, Jen for the intro)

I will spare you once again the details of our conversation because we both agreed that this was a selective conversation to be had with a selective audience as we understand that not everyone is open to understanding this craziness.

My point in all of this.... is that it really opened up the question in my mind about how real is reincarnation and/or the idea of having had a past life. Is it really possible? I haven’t figured that out yet, and honestly I don’t know how far I want to dive into it, but I have been told that if this is true, the person you are today is made up of the different traits you have brought forward from your past lives. That is FASCINATING to me!! And I have a really hard time not seeing the possibility of that being true.

My old soul quirks and fetishes I have mentioned are such a big part of me, and I do wonder if I brought these things back from the past. Either way, I’ve really come to like those things about myself. It’s what makes me different, it those things that have made me just that…ME!

Again I ask you…What do you think? Do you agree? Do you have similar feelings about your connections with certain things? Are you open enough to that discussion? Channeling Linda Richman here, but… I’ll leave you with this topic…Talk amongst ya’selves…Discuss!

To Lisa, my new, “old” friend…thanks for sharing the magic! OX

From my little corner to yours…

Lots of love and peace,

Sandy ;]

My Word for the Year 2011

Beginnings

So I’ve been picking a word for the year, oh lets say, for the past 3 years, and I was initially inspired to do so by my Sister-N-Law, Betty (Thank you, B!). It was working for her so why couldn’t it work for me, right? And I have to say that it truly has helped me see each year in a particular context. I have learned to really spend time thinking about this and deciding on a word that will fit. It helps to think about what is up and coming, how I’m going to see things and what to focus on. To always keep that word present in what is happening in my life and then be able to reflect on it.

So my word is BEGINNINGS…

Defined as the time or place at which anything starts…which is what I figured out is the definition of what this year will be for me. This word takes on many meanings for me… a time to start something new, to start over, putting things into action.

This year is full of beginnings for me…

I will be turning 40!! And what a great number to start a new century in my life with! Bring it On!

I am planning to start Weight Watchers again…A time to start over and get back into getting healthy for Me. To begin feeling good and better for many reasons.

My Michael is doing his First Communion this year…a time where he begins to put his faith into practice with our help.

My Sister-N-Law, Gaby, is getting married this year, and I along with my family will be a part of celebrating that beginning of her life! Soo excited for her!

They say that a beginning comes from an end….both Daniel and Christian will be graduating from Elementary School and Middle School (respectively) this year. Hence, they will both be beginning new important chapters of their lives, and I will be living those through them as I watch them start that part of their lives. OMG!!!

These are only the few beginnings that I’ve pointed out for this year so far, but they were enough to figure out that this word made a lot sense… it fell into place for me, easily. I know there will be more that I will be experiencing, and hopefully writing about throughout the year. I just hope you’ll be there to experience them with me.

"Beginning is not only a kind of action. It is also a frame of mind, a kind of work, an attitude, a consciousness. " ~ Edward Said

A word to live by…for me!

Many happy beginnings to all of you!

From my corner to yours,

Sandy

My Recap of 2010 (part 2)

This 2nd part is a bit compacted but here it is...

On the bright side of things and of course as everybody knows life continues to happen and there were soo many other moments that I experienced throughout the year with my kids, my husband, my family and friends. However, every moment since then has been experienced hopefully to my fullest and I’ve been thankful for all of them, good and bad.

I will try to touch on as many as I can…..

I had some great moments watching my boys play sports, but I had difficult moments realizing that although my kids are not perfect in all they do, people and coaches aren’t always fair, and that standing up for our kids is what we have to do.

I had some great moments at the beach again this summer!! I thank my beach partners in crime for giving me those chances to sink my toes in the sand, have adult conversations and to share the thrill of our kids enjoying themselves to the fullest in sand, water and sun (and in some rain this summer). The beach has truly become a place of peace for me.

I have had some individual moments with each of my boys in realizing that they are growing up!!
I had a moment with Michael one morning, and realized that he is my last baby, that he is NO longer a baby, and that next year he will be the only one in Elementary school and that makes me sad! I am realizing that he this dynamic little boy to say the least, and that he has been gifted with the creativity bug like me, “cursed” with heavy hands around his toys (I keep telling him God gave him those special hands for a special reason), and with a heart of gold for those he loves and he definitely loves his Mommy!

I’ve had moments with my Daniel where I am realizing that he is hitting his pre-teen years, that he is getting a witty and sarcastic personality, that he is getting moody and more importantly that to see those things especially in him are exciting and normal reactions to life that we, to some extent, encourage and have been looking for in him. I am realizing that he will be going to Middle School next year and as scared as I am, I think he is ready and can handle this challenge. It can only help him deal with real life settings in his future.

I’ve had moments with Christian this year that have blown me away as to how mature, wise and soulful my son is. I have had moments of feeling like he is growing into himself right in front of me, and moments where he is still truly such a teenage boy. He is heading into high school next year and seeing him through that decision making process was very enlightening and showed me there are times that we don’t give our kids enough credit for knowing who they are and how they’re going to get what they want out of life.

My husband and I have had to share many sad moments together as well as some beautiful moments and relationship building moments this year. In this recession, we've had to stick together and hold on to our faith even more so now than ever, so that these economic times do not cause any more conflict than necessary.It has proven to be a special year for us of growth and love and finding peace within ourselves to be the best and most honest selves for each other as well. We may still have those difficult moments but we’re definitely learning how to get through those and staying strong.

I have had some great moments with my friends this year, and my best friends have proven to be there for me through thick and thin. I have developed some amazing new friendships, I’ve built up some old friendships and made them closer, and Facebook has of course helped me to reach out to and maintain contact with many of those friendships I’ve made throughout my life. However, in the same breath, being what I consider to be a very loyal friend, I’ve had to lose the fear and realize, especially this year, that some of those friendships are here to stay, some are ever-changing and some will come and go as they are meant to be. We all have these kinds of friendships, and It’s totally ok. I realize that now! But I can now look at all my friendships, and be thankful for all the great moments and gifts they have given me and hopefully I have given to them throughout my life, hold them dear, and smile! 

Some of the important moments for me personally have been as simple as those where I have felt like I’ve succeeded at not making a big deal out of something, or knowing when and how to avoid a stupid fight because some things have not been worth it, when I pushed too hard to get my point across and made things worse. When I’ve made a stand for myself and what I need from people especially those I love, when I have felt the strongest at being me or have been ok with just being me. Moments I have felt that I have done my best as a mom, when I have given my boys their space and have actually been rewarded with only more of their love. Moments when I realize that I could have done some things differently for them. Moments, when I have realized that I have still have a lot of work on how to be a daughter who understands and chooses not to have conflict with her mom because she may not always have her around. Moments when I realize that I can still be a fragile girl inside.

In general…Moments when I realize that I am still growing up!!

It’s a new year and I realize that the word Moments will be forever attached to whatever I’m doing in life. It’s a word that can’t be discarded from my yearly vocabulary because they are forever happening. Like I’ve said before good and bad, happy and sad…they are all Moments to make me the person I am supposed to be. Boy did I EVER get that lesson this year!

Thank you Life!

From my little corner to yours….Here is wishing you forever Moments!!!

OXOX
Sandy

My Recap of 2010 (part 1 of 2)

Hello there again!!! Long time no blog!!! :]


I am going to start off by saying that I HATE that this seems to be becoming the norm for my blog and myself. I start off real strong at the beginning of the year and then I don’t end up blogging again until the end of the year. However, to my credit (I’m trying hard to justify this), that I have a collection of unfinished blog posts in Word that were started and just could never get to complete and posts, and you will hopefully understand why. Some of you have been nice enough to personally tell me and encourage me to get back to my blogging because you enjoy what I have to say, and to all of you I apologize for that. I have finally found some inspiration these last few days,and I hope you'll enjoy these next few posts. So I find myself with the overwhelming task of having to recap my year that was soooooo full of MOMENTS that I can’t begin to tell you.

But, I guess I can try…in 2 parts?...We'll see, so here we go....

Well, I guess I should start off by telling you that soon after I picked my word “MOMENTS” last year, and looking forward to what that might bring, I was faced with a multiple of moments all wrapped up one big moment that I, along with my family, didn’t expect to have to deal with. Between March and June we went through finding out we were pregnant (Surprise!), going through the shock and realization that we were going to be starting over with the baby process, fully accepting and welcoming said new baby, to alarmingly finding out quickly that something was wrong, and then losing our baby (although it was at an early stage), and then going through a tubal ligation to close up this chapter in my life. I apologize for my candor but at this point it is what it is... Crazy?? VERY!!!

You can only imagine all the details that took place in between, but hopefully you’ll understand the lack there of, and why it might have been hard to write about this at the moment it was happening. Let me assure you that I am ok and at peace with what has happened and that alone was a journey I had to take to find it.

But more importantly after all was said and done, I looked back at all the moments I had during this difficult life process.

I had the moment ….

When I realized I was 39 and pregnant again, and scared to death that I was not going to be capable to handle all of what came with that.

When I realized just how precious a gift of a child is.

When I realized that after much hope and prayer that this baby boy was truly not meant to be with us in this lifetime. We now have a little angel in heaven watching over us.

When I realized that this happens to many women and it was of no fault of mine

When I realized that I had 3 very special and beautiful boys to be sooo thankful for and never had any problems with.

When I realized that I have a very special family and friends who were there for me in many and all ways during this time. And That I have a special brother who mourned with me like no one could.

When I had to realize that we had to choose to no longer be physically able to have another child and be ok with it because that’s what was going to be best for us.

When I realized that God puts people in the same paths as yours, and yet sometimes provides different outcomes and even though we may not understand why right now...there is always a reason.

When I realized that God put this in our midst to learn from it, and to make us that much stronger of a family.

When I realized only again that God never gives you more than you can handle and when times are tough, He never leaves your side.

When I realized that because of that… How much stronger of a person and a woman I am than I ever thought!!


Wow! Now that was cathartic! I wish I could have done this sooner! LOL!

But yet maybe this was supposed to be the right time to write about this. I guess it just matters that I do.

To be continued my friends.....Part 2 coming up soon.....


Happy New Year 2011!!